Tuesday, May 06, 2003 okay. i wrote this earlier this day. just blogging it down now. read if interested.
isnt life funny? hais. now just sitting at the family louge, trying to study for my chem test tomorrow while waiting for suyee to finish her comm meeting. just gonna write down my thoughts. been real long since i did this. heh* realised that i have been thinking a lot. oh. and to add, been sorta having mood swings or basically just feeling really down. yeps. and everything that happens to me, i just want to type it down into my blog, just to express my views on this world that is revolving around me. today. as i was doing this Australian Maths Quiz and i started to think of how to change the design of my blog so that the html tag will work and the beautiful picture of the little girl can finally appear. weird. i did this thinking in the middle of a quiz! haha. (: am i addicted to designing blogs or what> haha. anws, my view of pple have changed. dont know why also. the minute i look at someone, my mind starts to fill with questions and doubts like "is she the person she seems to be" or "will our friendship last?" [heh, jamie just said bye to suyee] really. i wonder why the hell am i thinking this way. -shrugs- just feel like locking myself in a room, outta ontact from this whole fast-changing world. maybe that's why i seldom go to MSN anymore. i just dont want any contact with an other humans, well, other than my dear wonderful sister. i love her, lots!! [heh, joanna just said hi to me.] got back two tests today. go a B for e.lit and A for biology but i aint happy. i know i could have done better. i must start to work harder now. Os is like more and more a reality that i cant escape though i want to! sheesh. real worried that i cant reach my own expectations so i must work very hard. just to console myself, at least this term's grades are a huge improvement. yeah. i must keep up this good work. *smiles* well, my greatest fear is not passing the Os but guess as long as i put my heart and soul to my studies, my fears will be unfound. yeah~ now just looking forward to lunching with lynn on thurs. haiz. sy's comm meeting still havent end. they talk a lot of crap, unrelated stuff. gees. i'll get back to studying my chemistryfor tomorrow. yeah. determination is everything, i can do it! "xian ku hou tian." i must work hard and not let all those who believe in me down. yeah. my first step towards a good Os results — scoring A1s for chinese Os.okies. guess i'll blog this tonight. [that's all!!!! my thoughts and feeling on the 06/05 while waiting for sy.]
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